Healing Through the Noise: Monsters, Mirrors, and Moving On

Connections, Monsters, and the Road to Be Set Free Originally written June 19, 2016

🎥 Official Video for this Blog – Kanye West ft. Jay-Z, Nicki Minaj, Rick Ross, Bon Iver – Monster

https://www.youtube.com/watch?list=RDpS6HRKZQLFA&v=pS6HRKZQLFA

My partner is my other half and depending on the day (and which part of me decides to show up), that means something different. Sometimes he’s the storm, sometimes the calm, but together, we create a wild, vibrant harmony that makes life anything but boring.

We’re so alike that it feels natural to understand each other… but our differences are just as sacred. They keep us grounded, stretching our capacity to grow and love. When we’re both synced in the same energy? Watch out. That’s when the magic and the chaos unfold.

He has this saying, a weird little mantra: “Yogurt, fruit, and the Rotar Rudder. Gotta flush out the daily crap.” That’s how he reminds us to stay balanced, to keep it light, and not let life’s heaviness stick too long. He's blunt. Hilariously so. And while I may wrap my truths in more polished phrases, you can still see the crazy in my eyes. 😜

Even with all our shared energy, we still found ourselves disconnected recently, drifting in the chaos of daily life. It happens. Even soulmates can get lost in the fog.

And the distractions? Endless.

Some temptations we recognize. Some sneak in wrapped in charm, pleasure, and false promises. They whisper sweet things to our wounds, our fears. They promise power, control, even ecstasy. But what they deliver is an underworld of emptiness. You feel it when you're in it that ache, that absence of light. You’re not having fun anymore. You’re drowning.

I’ve been there. Lured by others. Lied to by my own mind. But I found my way out. And you can too.

✨ Ask for forgiveness. It’s that simple. Seek God. You’ll find Him. And you will win. ✨

I’ve learned to walk away from people who steal peace. Even when it hurts. Some souls clash so violently, they awaken the worst in each other. You lose your joy. Your sense of self. Your light. And sometimes, you lose other people in the process. But sacrificing for peace is never wrong. You’re not abandoning others you’re saving yourself. And in doing so, you’re saving others from the fallout.

We try to stay in the light. WWJD-style. What would Jesus do? He’d protect peace. He’d speak truth. And He’d love with boundaries.

But let’s be real. Some people flip our ugly switch. 🧨 We’re warned by friends, by our own intuition, by our angels. And sometimes, we ignore it. We want the benefit. We convince ourselves the chapter isn’t done.

We make excuses. But evil doesn’t. Evil persists. It targets the grieving, the vulnerable, the kind-hearted. It tears apart teams that could change the world with love. That’s its game.

People fueled by hate often wear masks of hurt. Misery loves company, and haters find followers by relating through pain. They gather tools your vulnerability, your trauma and twist them to support a false narrative. Suddenly, lies sound like truth. Especially when it’s being repeated by someone “trustworthy.”

Always ask:

“Do you even know the person you’re talking about?” If the answer’s no, stop listening.

Gossip is the playground of cowards. Mean-spirited people are weak. They don’t stand alone, so they build cliques and aim to destroy.

And bullies? They don’t target the loud. They come for the kind. The easygoing. The ones who radiate light. Because they can’t stand the reflection of something they lack.

Most people don’t support bullying, but fear silences them. I get it. But silence fuels cruelty. And standing for what’s right, especially alone, is power.💪🏼

When you’ve been targeted by hate, especially from the past, it stings. People from high school resurfacing, bringing drama into our present life, it’s exhausting. But strong love attracts strong attacks. That’s the truth.

Arguments don’t always come from malice. Sometimes it’s feeling unheard. Sometimes our jokes and humor our coping tools that fall flat. But laughter, our go-to, always reminds us we’re on the same team.

Relationships take work.

Ego? That’s the enemy.

Vulnerability? That’s the bridge.

And sometimes we just need space to reconnect with ourselves and God before we can reconnect with each other.

And when we do? We remember the love. The realness. The innocence. The power.

I see it in other peoples eyes those who try to understand, love deeper, be better. And it makes me want to do the same. We’re all learning about love together. ❤️

When two become one, something powerful is born and it terrifies people who don’t understand it. So they try to tear it down.

But we’re not letting them.

I’m a deep thinker, always analyzing and expressing. My tribe is too, we’re intense, passionate, wildly animated probably too much for some. But if you’ve met us, you’ve laughed. Hard. And you’ve probably felt safe, even if it was hidden under sarcasm and sass.

Not everyone will like you. Some will pretend to, then stab you in the back. You’ll feel the shade in the room. Trust that.

Some will want to silence your light because it blinds them. But don’t dim it.

Sometimes I just need to write. Scream. Exhale. I’ve been holding back my voice too long, and this this is my volcano erupting. 🌋

No, there isn’t one thing that causes a disconnection. It’s a web of emotions, decisions, and energy. But we do choose which connections are worth keeping and which monsters must be left behind.

🧠 Wise Words to End With:

Keep those around you who love you when you’re not even trying. The ones who stay through your messy. Who see your spark through the smoke.

And as for the haters?

🗣️ “Don’t hate what you can’t imitate.”

👑 “My name must taste good. it’s always in someone’s mouth.”

💋 “Keep talkin’… You’re makin’ me famous.”

🔥 “If anyone’s dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let them.”

💪 “Jealousy is a disease; get well soon.”

🃏Tarot Card Suggestion for This Blog:

The Devil + The Lovers Reversed + Strength Upright

Breaking bonds, facing toxic temptations, and choosing inner strength over external validation. The lesson? Liberation comes when we choose love with discernment. And find freedom on the other side.